I’m lost in a dream
My mind cannot comprehend
Feels like I’m in too deep
Do I need to find a way back?
But this is real, isn’t it?
My heart cannot understand
My heart bleeds thinking about you
My heart leaps thinking you
I don’t know how to walk in a meadow
I miss the feel of burning coal beneath my bare feet
I cannot smile, I yearn to shed a tear
Please don’t make me laugh
My heart cannot take it
I’m floating beyond the clouds
I’m bursting with joy
Could I be happy?
I dread the day I would wake with you gone
Are you going to leave?
Don’t wait for tomorrow
Today is always better
I am afraid
I don’t know how to love
I can’t feel this way
It’s too much
There are butterflies in my stomach
A glimmer in my eyes
You make me shine
You make me dance
I don’t understand the symphony
How can I dance when my feet only know their shackles?
Is this a trick?
Would I fall again if I try to move
I fear believing would be handing my heart over for torment
I fear happiness
Happiness is doom, a trap, a facade
A fleeting emotion, followed always by tragedy
I fear you
The way you make my heart bubble
The way you make my skin tingle
The way you dry my tears and make them flow again
(Originally written 11th March, 2015)